maybe...says the breakig heart

I'm trying to get out of this deep dark cold and lonely hole I have put myself in. Unknowingly I fell head over heals in love with an idea that as each days passes becomes more of a want that I cant quite grasp. Its amazing how your heart can break over something that never existed in the first place. It's like being in love with someone you had a dream about... they never existed in reality but your heart breaks for them to just be real. My heartaches for this in my heart to just be real, for that line to confirm that all that I have wanted and all my prayers were not a waste of my mental energy. Maybe next month I say to myself... maybe its too early to tell. Maybe maybe... maybe... a heart breaks over ... a maybe